One of the many things that I do on my spare time is “listen to the radio”. To the radio built in my cellphone. But one disadvantage with a radio is that you only get to listen what is played at that moment. Unlike when you listen from a CD player (playing your fave music collection) or say for an example an ipod playing your uploaded MP3 collection, you get to choose the songs that make you feel good or bring you back to the good memories.

Just a while ago I was chatting with my husband. I told him that I have recorded Deye’s conversation with me but I am still trying to figure out how to download it from my cellphone, upload it to the PC and send to him. I know it’s simple but unluckily my micro mem card got corrupted and there’s no other way I could download it. That time my brother was out. I would’ve sent the media files via bluetooth. I was left with no choice but to wait till night. When I was finally done with the file transferring from his cellphone to the PC, I wanted to blog about it. I usually upload MP3s in imeem, and link it to the file where I am posting it. I had to search again for an online converter coz I had lost all my bookmarked sites last month. I whined about it. Hahaha! That’s a lotta work to do huh!

A piece of paper slipped through my hand as I opened the card, and it says:

Don’t wanna lose you, but I need to let go.
Sure it does hurt deep within, but that’s the best thing we could do.
By not letting go of the past, we are stuck…
Hurt…. full of regrets… with false hopes… and never ending questions….
Why it didn’t work?

Afraid for love to fade, I must admit.
Was it the unfinished business in the past?
Or the fact that we never really said goodbye?
Then why it didn’t work?

You said I left you…. but why did you let me go?
It’s too late…. it’ll never work.
Maybe in another time, it will.
Yet, I won’t say goodbye….
For I want to keep a spot for you
and the memories in my heart.
Without hatred… no regrets… no false hopes
Just the good memories…. just the memorable ones.

As far as I remember, I wrote this just after I left the country year 1999. Supposed to be a poem that rhymes but I just couldn’t… I just thought I’d share it here.

Sounds complicated huh? Never mind. I still stay at home anyway, that makes sense LOL! Anyway, today is my official joining day at On Assist. At exactly 11:30pm, I came online. 6 minutes later, I was able to get hold of Ms. Dine to let her know I’m in. While I was chatting with her, my daughter was seated beside me. Yeah, she was still wide awake at that time. But I’ve already told her that “Mama has to go to work later” earlier, and that she should be in bed by that time. She agreed but won’t follow anything I said to her.

I made a deal then… that she could stay at awake and watch me, but… she has to behave and not supposed to touch anything within my working area. She listened carefully as if she had absorbed everything I said. Few minutes later, she was already almost touching my keyboard. I was a little irritated already but then I remembered what Ms. Dine told me last Saturday, if she tries to catch your attention while you are seated in front of your computer, no matter how busy you are “just pay attention to her“. That, I noted in my mind.

So this was what happened after that - a nice conversation. Please read on while I check on some

Mom received a text message that says:

FDA (USA) advisory : All drugs containing Phenylpropanolamine are being recalled.  Stop taking anything containing this  ingredient. It has linked to  INCREASED HEMORRHAGIC STROKE (bleeding brain) among women  ages 18-49 and seizures children. Examples in the Phils are alkaseltzer, dimetapp, robitussin, dexatrim, bioflu, neozep, sinutab and decolgen. Check this site http://www.fda.gov/cder/drug/infopage/ppa. Please pass to friends and lovedones.

Alarming! In fact, I am still taking one of the medicines mentioned {Sinutab} as well as my daughter. Her med for colds is Dimetapp. Has anyone received the same text message? Oh well…

All so suddenly, I couldn’t feel you anymore.
Are you still there?
For I couldn’t even feel the magic words…
Has everything faded away?
Please tell me it’s not…
Tell me I’m wrong…
Let me know you’re there…
Then I’ll hold on.

Waiting…. expecting…
My email notifier to pop up,
No, it isn’t you. Not a single email from you.
Where are you?
A single buzz will do…
Just let me know you’re on…
Then I’ll wait from dusk till dawn.

Are we still in love?